I just broke up with my girlfriend. My baby is gone. Most likely forever. I guess I can hope but what’re the chances that we ever meet again. I don’t know why I’m saying all this, but it’s Tumblr so what the hell.
It all started a week or two ago. She started deciding to wake up earlier than normal just to get ready for the school day - putting make up on and all - when normally she could care less. And then she would go mess around with boys in her class and take pictures and call them “bb” and such. She told me that she wants space and to be free, but it hasn’t even been half a day and she’s already appointed a new “best friend” and has been saying “ILY” to other boys.
I never actually took all those stories seriously; the people who talk about heartbreak and all that. I thought it was just sad people being dramatic. Now I know better. It feels like I’m going to throw up, except that it’s in the center of my chest. It’s just this dull ache in my heart that only gets worse when you think about it and I don’t think it will ever get any better. I know if I were to find a way to let go completely it would totally go away, but it’s SO hard to do that. I know that no matter what she feels, I will always have feelings for her. And as much as I know I shouldn’t, I’m sure that if she were to come back I would welcome her as if nothing had happened. And I can’t stop thinking about it. I’ve even thought about taking my entire Senior year at the local community college just so that I don’t have to get reminded of all this whenever I happen to run into her in the hallway.
I know that this probably doesn’t matter to most people. And I’m in High School so that can take away from my story. But feelings are still feelings. And mine are still so strong. This is an apology to all those people that have gone through this, and that I have never taken seriously until now. I am truly sorry that I took you all to be dramatic, because I know what it is really like now. I included this picture above because it explains life almost to a tee right now. All we can ever do is smile and keep on keeping on, and hope it ends. So keep trying all those out there and I will right along with you! You are all my inspiration. Thank you to anyone that has taken the time to read this, it shows you truly care, even if we don’t know each other.